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Year 8 of Braska's Calm

Day 1:  Choices
Day 20: Lady Ginnem?
Day 25: Chappu's Reaction
Day 26: Ginnem's Arrival
Day 27: Besaid Cloister
Day 29: Chappu's Goodbye
Day 30: To Kilika
Day 32: Kilika Island
Day 33: Concering Sin
Day 34: Luca
Day 35: Mi'hen Highroad
Day 39: Mushroom Rocks
Day 41: Djose Shore
Day 42: Djose Cloister
Day 43: Concerning Magic
Day 44: Bevelle Festival
Day 50: Still in Bevelle
Day 52: Macalania Forest
Day 54: Of Summoners Past
Day 56: Lake Macalania
Day 57: Macalania Temple

Final Fantasy X characters, setting, locations, and original images/screencaps of Spira © Square-Enix. Photomanips and this journal created by Helluin.

Day 25, 8th Year of Braska's Calm

Well, that's done it. One moment, Chappu's sun and laughter and so full of life that I'm drunk with it; the next he's being very much a man. No, a boy. I'm not some trophy cup to be kept on a shelf in his hut for him to admire and show off to friends. I understand that he's angry because he loves me, and this is a hard thing to ask. I might not make it back. But he should have at least a little faith in my skills. I will be careful. I don't intend to lose him any more than Yuna.

Yes, that's the difference. None of us wanted Yuna to become a Summoner. But she has the talent. How dare we forbid it? Let her train, let her learn; she can heal and bring hope to Spira in so many ways that have nothing to do with Sin. Yevon willing, she'll never have to set off on pilgrimage, but if she must, then I will watch over her with Kimahri. I won't cage her or refuse to acknowledge her special gifts.

Chappu wanted to come along, of course, but he's a blitzball player, not a Crusader. He doesn't know the first thing about fighting. I'm sorry for telling him so, but there's no point in his pretending to be something he's not. How could I protect a Summoner while fretting about his safety?

I hurt him badly. He crossed a line, but that's no excuse. I must try to make it up to him before we leave.

Lady Ginnem's boat arrives in the morning. I hope she'll forgive prying questions. I'm sure she'll have a few for me as well. We must be certain of one another. Our lives -- and perhaps all of Spira -- will depend upon it.

How strange. Of course, I'd be gratified to help usher in the Calm and end Sin's terror. I long to see the day when children can grow up without the faintest idea what it's like to watch a Summoner dance for their loved ones. But I'm not noble enough to sacrifice personal joy for the greater good. That's not why I'm going. I'm just tired of losing those I love.

Never again. I'm sorry, Chappu.

Speaking of Yuna, where is she? She missed the evening meal again. I wonder if Binna is being especially hard on her, so that Yevon cannot accuse him of showing favoritism. If so, I'm sure she'll manage.

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